a night to get away

I abhor coming up with titles for blog posts, so they are usually song lyrics. Song lyrics that may or may not have anything to do with the post. Or the song I'm listening to at the moment. Or...anything at all? So just bear with me.

I'm making a New Year's pact (not a resolution...I never follow, let alone remember my resolutions) to write more often. I have such a horrible memory for things, especially every day things, and I feel like keeping a log of events will help me remember. I wish I had done moreso when I was younger. I'm envious of my friends who remember specific moments in high school, because I remember very few. I get a general, overall feeling when I think of high school. Or anything that happened before last week. It's frustrating, and I'd like to actually remember my life in more than just passing blurs and colors. It's why I keep old journals and diaries for as long as I do. I need a chronicle...something outlining what I did. Because I just don't remember.

In any case, the end of the year is fast approaching, so I've been trying to decide how I want next year to go. About things I want to accomplish, and how I want to change how I've been living. Here's what I've come up with:

1. Stop being lazy.
I've had issues with being lazy my entire life. I don't like to work at things, because a lot of things have just happened for me. Or come easily, without much effort. So I'm lazy. I need to stop it. Seriously.
2. Learn to cook better.
Nate loves my cooking, which is good. Also bad, because it means I don't really experiment with flavors or new foods. I stay with what works: pasta, cheese, meat. Usually accompanying or included vegetable. Time for some new recipes. Ones that don't involve copious amounts of cheese. Or pasta. Though I do love both cheese and pasta. Mmmmm. Which brings me to my next point...
3. Eat better.
Get a steamer and fresh veggies. Quit only making dinners that are ready in as little time as possible. Quit buying snacks that are all carbs and sugar. Put less crap in my coffee (ie put only enough crap to make it palatable to drink.) I'm also contemplating a low-carb (or at least less carb) diet. Not gluten free, but more rice. More quinoa (something I've never cooked, I feel so fancy!) More wheat pasta, even though it doesn't taste as good as the regular kind. Less rolls, white bread, white potatoes (more sweet potatoes?) More squash, cauliflower and spinach. Noms.
4. Equal amounts computer and real life.
I mostly mean this in terms of being a real, active person and participating in life. It's hard when you feel super sleep deprived, and I am not going to resolve to give up Facebook games because, let's face it, it isn't going to happen. But if I sit on my ass for 4 of the 6 hours Nate is at work, playing on the computer and watching TV, I will get up after those four hours and at least play Wii Fit games for an hour. Even better, if it isn't raining, I will go outside...to the library or something. Or to Pike Place Market. Or I will go visit Jess, who now probably lives as close to me as she did when we were little kids, in Tallahassee. Or something. Anything. I will get off the couch. Really.
5. Don't give into temptation.
There is no reason to bring cookies, a little debbie Christmas Tree snack AND those two mini Reese for dessert. Just like there is no reason to bring them to work for lunch. Or to eat three helpings of dinner before my stomach realizes it's full because it tastes SO good. They will all still be there tomorrow. Spread the love.
6. Keep in touch with friends/family.
This is going to be hard for me, because (newsflash) I hate the phone. I hate calling people. I feel awkward talking on the phone, even to my family. So friends isn't any better. But I'm going to call people. And talk to them. And I will email! And not just rely on facebook and text messages as my means of communication with people I love. So there.
7. Let go.
I remember being fearless, at some points in my life. Now I've gone back to being scared, whiny, unsure and listless. I'm contemplating the effect the wintertime and lack of sunshine here in Seattle is having on my psyche, and contemplating buying a sunlamp/sunrise alarm clock. Because sunshine is a good thing, and there aren't many days of it here. And there probably won't be until at least April. I must take matters into my own hands.

In other news, I want a kitty. Or a puppy. Something small and soft and furry and ADORABLE. Want.

That's all.

-C